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Ideal body shape? I am more than my body.

December 10, 2015 / ,

When will enough ever be enough?

"Just few more kgs, just few more centrimetres, and I'll be at my ideal shape."
"Just gotta skip some meals and stick to veggies/fruits, and I'll be able to fit into my old pair of jeans."
"Just need a sharper face and I'll be able to look better in photos and on screen."
"Do I look fat in this outfit?"
"If only I don't have those flabs on my arms, those folds on my tummy,
a more defined jawline, thigh gaps, a smaller waist, etc etc."
"Argh. Fats"
"Sigh. I'm no longer as skinny as before."
"Damn. My face looks chubby!"

Do these thoughts appear in your mind frequently? Let me be honest with you, such thoughts occur to me occasionally too.
As much as I advocate a healthy lifestyle with frequent exercise sessions and balanced diets in order to feel good and look good,
there are still days when I struggle to accept my own body, and when I don't feel good about my body at all. 

Vietnam: Sapa, Halong Bay, Hanoi.

October 19, 2015 /



Dear neglected space,
I'm back to leave you with some happy memories from my recent trip to Vietnam.
This impromptu trip gave me one of the best memories.
I loved the trip to Sapa especially. It was nothing glamorous.
I went without make-up, flat & oily/sweaty hair,
dirty bottoms from falling onto the muddy ground, stayed in homestays, etc,
yet it nourished my soul
and left me with so many beautiful and warm memories.
Simple travels are the best kind to truly relax and replenish.
Traveling is undoubtedly therapeutic.
It allows you to escape from your problems and leave them aside completely (temporarily of course);
by the time you return, you are usually able to look at them from a different perspective,
and somehow, they do not seem as big or as terrible as you initially made them out to be.
You find a new form of energy to deal with these problems, and move on with life.

'Why do you go away? So that you can come back.
So that you can see the place you came from with new eyes and extra colours.
And the people there see you differently, too.
Coming back to where you started is not the same as never leaving.'
--Terry Pratchett

In a week, I visited Sapa, Halong Bay and Hanoi.
Let me begin with the pictures, followed by some descriptions/details of the places I went.

My skin condition.

August 4, 2015 / , ,

If you have been following me on Instagram and  Dayre,
you would have known of an issue which has been bothering me for months.
And by saying 'bothering me', I actually meant how it made me feel so terrible, self-conscious, insecure, low self-esteem,
low confidence, or in a crude but short description: shitty.

My nightmare
For the past 25 years, I have never experienced such terrible outbreaks like the ones 
I had been dealing with for the past few months.
While my skin condition was not exactly one of the best (uneven skin tone and dull skin were my main concerns),
it was never this terrible. Never.
Towards the second half of last year,
I started experiencing a few outbreaks here and there,
but it was nowhere near what you would see in the pictures below.
Concealer became my ultimate best friend,
but even that could not save me totally because even make-up could not cover the bumps, those pop-out ones.
The major outbreaks affected me alot, especially on days when I had filming.
I can edit away the bumps easily using photoshop/phone apps for my photos,
but I could not do so for filming.
And you know how High-Definition means that everything can be seen clearly on the TV screen nowadays..
It affected me so much, that I started avoiding eye-contacts with people
whom I talk to, because I hated catching the sight of them staring at my face.
I knew that the best way to not worsen the condition, 
was to avoid makeup. But I could not, due to work.
I do not know how I survived filming when the condition was at the worst (April - May, especially)
To be frank, I barely survived.
I was filming for 絕對保險 Accidental Agents (which will air in September by the way!),
and I think my make-up artists had such a tough time doing their best to help me conceal the bumps,
& I just kept apologising to them, and went home each day feeling terrible.
I also had another makeup artist on another set of show I was filming for,
who asked me, 'What happened to your skin?! Not just the acnes, but your skin tone is very patchy!'
I cancelled several meet-ups with my friends because after all the makeup from work,
all I wanted to do was to hide at home, and allow my skin to breathe.
My close friends knew how affected I was.
I even resorted to wearing masks.
That period of time was one of my worst nightmares, happening in real life.

And my breaking point?

5 things I did in Hong Kong in 3 days + Hotel Sáv.

June 30, 2015 / , ,


5 things I did in Hong Kong in 3 days

Frankly, 3 days were a lil' too short for me.
If I could, I would have stayed longer, just to go for more hikes in Hong Kong.
We skipped the touristy spots such as Disneyland, Ocean Park, Victoria Peak, Tian Tan Buddha,
Avenue of Stars, and I did not even get to visit Lan Kwai Fong!

1. Eat & eat & eat