Fourteen.

Lesson learnt........

Repent.
The uncle was really nice & kind-hearted & understanding..
Repent.
I cannot take his forgiveness for granted,
he totally didn't have the obligation to.
Repent.
No more making of this grave mistake.
Repent.
Bear in mind that my actions do affect others,
directly or indirectly.
It also reflects back to myself at the end of the day.
Repent.
I can decide whether I want a white paper with
a few black dots (be it intentional or unavoidable),
or to have the paper vandalized with ugly splotches.
Repent..

//Edited. Thirteen.

I won the tix!
The Things I want to do with my Family thingy. rmbr?!
but I got the heritage tour one.........
was hoping for the flyer or the others..
HAHAH but nvm!
still glad. ;D

okie update agn soon.

//edited:

Because you make me smile, when no one else can.

The only reason for me to smile now, is prolly Kait. Because of her arrival, I managed to shake off everything. I was so happy naturally for these 2-3 days. I could just observe her for more than an hour, just watching her sleep, admiring her actions & every lil’ thing. You know, it makes me wonder & realise, that one day, this innocent & sweet lil’ princess will grow up & she too, will have her own stories, her own experiences, etc. That she too, will soon go through all these emotional rides like any of us will. The joy, the tears, the sorrows, the pains, the laughters, etc etc.
But whatever it is, it definitely aint something to worry or even think abt at all now. She has the luxury of living in her small lil’ world, & just slp peacefully, receiving all the love from us all.

Let it go, let it flow, feel it completely.
But eventually, wipe ur tears
and tell yourself that,
I've felt the feeling of saddness completely,
its time to move on to feel and experience other emotions
-Tuesdays with Morrie.

read very long ago.
but ting just reminded me of this quote.

so, what now?
shld i? shld she? will he? shld we?

Twelve!

& a new life begins!!!!!!!!!!!

WELCOME BABY KAITLYNCHAIENTING TO THE WORLD!!
Kait Kait Kait, oh how i love your name!
you adorable lil' thing,
wait for me.
for im coming for you in the evening!!!!!!!!!!

Eleven.

HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAH!
this is HILARIOUS.
now I totally utd why you warned me of
how irritating she actually is
& that she always assumes that she has a good sense of humor.
HAHAH after looking at it,
its probably hard not to agree.
but okay, seriously I still believe she's nice.
in any case, GDLUCK TO YOU!

Ten.

Epitome of a Failure.

Results out.
bad.
very bad.
ultra bad.
atrocious.
whatever you can think of.


so sad but true, uni is like this.
you judge your standard this way.
it's not just abt whether you pass or is able to proceed to Year 2.
it's my fking honours we're talking abt here..
no pt being emo over it.
but it's unavoidable to be sad right?
it ain't wrong to let the tears flow right?
but ultimately, it's over.
no pt, really.
of course i know.
but f.
if i didnt study hard & i get this kinda shitty results,
i wouldnt give a damn.
it just feels damn sucky now.
cause i know the amt of effort & hardwork ive put in.
the result just totally dont justify.
i dare say that i've studied as hard as possible.
so what's the bottomline?
blame noone, but myself.
for being, simply dumb.
or for simply, being dumb.
it's in the nature. you can't change it.
trust me, am not even emo-ing over here,
just stating a fact.
& so, what to do now?
try agn next sem LO.
what else?

Nine. -The Things I want to do with my family!

You know, I've always admired those families with frequent
"family days" like a meal together at the restaurants,
or even a simple family outing to the Spore attractions,
to the shopping centres, or even a movie trip.
& all the family members
are so close to one another, & talk & laugh about anything under the sun.

I think the last time my family went out on an outing together,
was to the zoo when I was in Primary 3?
I really don't recall any such occasions after which..
No movie trips, no luxurious treats, no Kbox/Partyworld, etc.

Don't misunderstand me,
I'm very close to my Mum actually.
It's just that, perhaps what I can say is,
my family does not have the tradition of such
"quality family times" together, or whatever you name it.

So, "The Things I want to do with my family" may actually seem very simple & maybe cliche,
but it is something which I do not really see the chance of happening anyway..

In any case, a perfect Sunday for me.. Let's see.
(cause Sunday is usually labeled as Family Day, isn't it?)

Firstly, we'll all wake up in the morning,
let's say, like 7am?
& then we'll go for a morning exercise together!
ALL of us!

Oh, I forgot to introduce my family members.
They are:
Mummee, Dad, Sis, Bro-in-Law, & of course, ME!
& also, the latest addition to our family soon,
(LIKE, NEXT WEEK!!!!!)
Kaitlyn, my dear princess niece. :)

Okay, so we can go for jogs around Woodlands estate, trekking,
cycling, swimming, gyming or even the Big Walk events
held monthly in my neighbourhood.
Don't you think it's really cool to see the whole family jogging together?
HAHAH, a lil' funny though.

I really think that frequent exercise is important,
& I really do like the idea of all my family members
keeping fit & staying healthy TOGETHER. ;D

Well, after which,
would be a nice breakfast together.
There is no need for expensive breakfast,
heck the Swe*s*n's/Delifr**ce, etc.
Just a simple meal at the coffee shops, hawker centres,
or perhaps Macs would be good enough for me.

Over at breakfast,
we can talk & share about anything that happened to us
for the past week, our thoughts, etc.
Quality family time, is what I yearn for.

Then, we can head home, for a shower.
& perhaps some nap time.
HEHEH.

So what do we do for the rest of the day?
Perhaps,
we can just rent some VCDs home to watch together;
go for shopping trips;
visit the Spore attractions,
like Sentosa, Zoo, Spore Flyer, the various Museums,
etc, etc;
movie @ the cinema;
food-hunt! (like being the food critics for all the supposedly famous food );
or even a day trip to Msia.

We'll end off the day with a home-cooked dinner.
I've always love home-cooked food,
especially Mummee's.
Sis & I will help Mum in the preparation,
(let the ladies take charge!)
& then once again, we'll all sit around the small table of ours,
& enjoy a simple meal together.

Well well, that's the things I want to do with my family.
Tell me, it ain't demanding at all, right?

But such a simple wish,
appears as a beautiful/perfect scenario to me,
something which I'll always picture in my mind,
yet wonders when will it ever happen.
The exercise regime itself will be totally impossible actually.
Due to the laziness of my other family members,
& also due to health issues like Arthritis (hence no strenuous exercises)

Oh, to add on,
I will really love to see the family going on an overseas trip together.
None of us has traveled on the plane for holidays before!
Dad has taken the plane before,
but in his army days. HAHAH.
Ahh, how nice it'd be............!

Alright, so why did I write a whole post on
"the things I want to do with my family!" ?
Basically, it's a contest which gives me the chance to win myself
SEVEN tickets to bring my family members
to one of these:

1) Singapore Flyer
2) Singapore River Cruise
3) Rhino Tour
4) Hippo Tour
5) Hippo River
6) Chinatown Heritage Centre

;D
& guess what?
you can take part too!
have fun blogging about
the things YOU want to do with YOUR family!


“Start planning for your own Family Day Out on 30 May 2009! Visit www.nfc.sg!”

Eight

Sink or swim:

If you dont wna sink, you better figure out how to swim.

Seven.

OMG TMR IS THE LAST DAY & YOU KNOW HOW GLAD I AM………

okay so tmr is the fifth day which is also the last day
@ RobinsonsCentrept!
The job is frankly BORINGSHITZ.
the 3 of us, V, M & I were totally bored like shit.
basically our job scope was to give out the gifts that
the customers are entitled to redeem.

Anw, our products are Lancome pdts.
where those aunties spent 400, 500bucks,
like how i spend my 4, 5 bucks.
maybe 40cents, 50 cents.
SERIOUS.
dont utd how can one spend like 940 on the beauty pdts?!
okay maybe am just being a sour grape here..
but still, got money also not to be spent like this, right?!
like you spend 2, 3 hundred maybe still acceptable.
i guess its too early for me to comment.
maybe i’ll turn out to be one of them in 30yrs time,
we’ll never know. HAHAH
i’d definitely wish that i’ll have the capability to do so,
even tho i may not choose to. ;D
But currently, the few hundreds = damn lot & useful & meaningful to me.
& i feel that they could have been put to better use……………
for example, DONATE TO ME. HAHAH

(that 2 small gold bottles are the Absolue series & these 2 small bottles cost $250 each……)
cmon, let’s be Taitais too!

Six.

one fine day(night)........

I CAUGHT A BIG COCKROACH W A PLASTIC BAG. have killed so many cockroaches before w the pesticide. BUT THIS IS THE FIRST TIME I CAUGHT W PLASTIC BAG. GAWD MY HEART ALMOST JUMPED OUT.

update soon. shagged.

Five.

The Racket Mania………..

first squash attempt ytd was great!
i kinda like it.
tennis next week.
& then pingpong & badminton to come. **

sushi @ 99cents each for lunch.
Salmon = love, period.
love the exercise, love the salmon, love the company.

okie lowlow,
this is for you to watch:
Spore Women Catfight in Bus

trng later.
work + dance tmr.
work + dance on thurs.
work + trng on fri.
work + dance on sat.
work on sun.

Four.

Life Story by Dick Lee

Wake up, she said
Look it’s a beautiful day
Downstairs to the kitchen door
And then away
Into the night
Morning feeling is on
Come the clouds, the moon
And morning is gone

Born today some years ago
And had a happy childhood
But I fell in love and out
Nothing changed
Lived a life of nothing much
But then how much can one expect?
So there you are
My life has gone
But I’m the same

Just my life story
Minute by second a story
That goes on forever with each breath that I take
This is my life story
Uneventful a story
That ages with each year and birthday cake

Get up, he said
Hurry or you might be late
Everyday you hurry off to keep your date
Learn something new
What are you hoping to prove?
Make some money
Find a wife
Have a kid or two

Thinking back
I like to dream of things I would have done
If I were braver then again or not
What can I do?
Maybe if I had another chance
I’d go into my past
And make my life a better one
For me and you

Just my life story
Minute by second a story
That goes on forever with each breath that I take
This is my life story
Uneventful a story
That ages with each year and birthday cake

When its time
And I must close
I’ll write a book
And sign it X
And send it to some true romance type magazine somewhere
Then the world will read of me
And say there lived a hero
But too late my friends and enemies
I guess life isn’t fair

So my life story
Is quite explanatory
Would you please start from page one
And please go on
Till I’m done
Till I’m done
Till I’m done

Three.

Just some thoughts.

Who’s the first to come to your mind?

when you’re happy, and wish to spread it to someone, who is the first person to come to your mind?
when you’re down, and need someone to share your sorrow, who is the first person to come to your mind?
when you’re glad, and want to share the joy , who is the first to come to your mind?
when you’re lost, and need someone to guide you, who is the first to come to your mind?
when you’re doubtful, and just need an assurance, who is the first to come to your mind?
when you’re pissed, and just wna rant, who is the first to come to your mind?
when you’re excited, and cant contain the excitement to yourself, who is the first to come to your mind?
when you’re anxious, and need someone to calm you down, who is the first to come to your mind?
when you’re tired, and need just a smile to brighten up your day, who is the first to come to your mind?
when you’re discouraged, and need motivation, who is the first to come to your mind?
when you’re feeling light-hearted, and want to share a joke, who is the first to come to your mind?
when you’re sad, and needed a shoulder to lean on, who was the first to come to your mind?
when you’re scared, and want a really comforting tight hug, who is the first to come to your mind?

so, did you have a list of many different ppl for the different situations?
or did you have the same person appearing in your mind first for majority?
or did you thought of the same person for all?

Love, can be simple.
A simple test like this can allow you to discover who are the
important ones/one in your life;
it may be one, or a few, or many.
If you love someone, be it your lover your frns or your family,
it shouldnt be hard to realise;
simple thoughts and actions like these,
can prove it all.
you can never deny, cause you can lie to anyone,
but yourself.

nth lasts forever, this, we all know.
but, just be true to yourself.
dare to love, & follow your heart.
you’d never know what may happen next.
people may change,
environment may change,
feelings may fade,
situations may change,
but, just be true to yourself at the very moment.
enjoy the present moment.
be clear of the ones you love,
and treat them well.
cherish the ones who love you,
the ones who have always been thr for you,
they definitely deserve the love and concern from you.

ppl come & go, but you can choose who to stay in your life,
& whose life you wna remain in.

& you jollywell do something to hold on to the r/s,
your loved ones who have been thr for you all the while,
may not continue to be thr for you in future.
frns you love, may not love you as much anymore.
never ever take anyone/anything for granted.
this, we all know.
but who doesnt omit this mistake over & over agn?
& often, we realise, we regret, we feel the pain,
only when it’s too late.
Love, can be simple.

Two.

Happy Mummee’s Day!
slept @ 5, woke up @ 7 to make breakkie for Mummee.
okie last yr i made this:

& then this time i made this:
(uh okay same cup, same plate.)

brought her out for a simple dinner.
no fanciful/rich treats.
but we felt that we dont need such.
the ♥ aint measured by monetary terms.
in any case,
am sure the hamburger was damn nice man!
she looked satisfied & happy. ;D

Mummee Dearest,

We know we've been through so so much tgt.
The hardships, the troubles, the worries, the sorrows.
No doubt they led to so much tears, or even quarrels.
But it's also due to these that we've experienced,
that made us even closer, that strengthened our bond even further.
That made me realize even more, how much you mean to me.
That made me believe that as long as we stay close tgt,
we can overcome & conquer any obstacle coming our way.
That made me determined to give you a good life,
which you've never been able to enjoy for these 20+ yrs.

I love how we always hold hands, whenever we go,
even if it's just a short trip to the NTUC.
I love how you hold on to me, for support.
I love how you'll always cook my favourite dishes,
whenever i feel like having them.
I love how you've always believed in me,
no matter how low morale i get.
I love how you make me smile, & make me laugh whole-heartedly.
I love how you've never pressurized me,
in studies or other issues.
I love how you always tolerate my
mood swings, my temper, my ventings.
I can go on forever on all the things that I love abt you, Mummee.

You know, how it hurts me, whenever I touch & feel your hands,
the pair of rough hands,
which signifies all the hardwork & tough life,
that you've been through for 20+ yrs.
Which clearly shows how you've never spent on yourself,
to pamper yourself for 20+yrs.
Spa, Facial, Massage, Manicures, Makeups, Branded Goods, Condos, Cars, Credit Cards, Overseas Trips.
None of these belongs to your category.
& I know, you'll never yearn for them.
But Mummee, gimme a few more years.
I promise I'll give you a life that you totally deserve.

Health, is what worries me most.
One after another..
Arthritis since 20 yrs ago,
the bad fall last yr which resulted in the weak ankle,
& now, early stage of Osteoporosis..
It must have been hard on you, I know..
& you still hafta work now, standing for 5 hours straight.
& sometimes even up to 8 hours.
how can your legs take this strain any further?
I really really pray tt GuanYinNiangNiang will bless you..
& not torture you any further..

Mummee, I Love You.
I love you every single day.
You're my best lover ever,
for no one will ever utd me like you do,
no one will tolerate me like you do,
no one will care for me like you do,
most importantly,
no one loves me like you do.
♥