One Hundred & Eight.

Hello! it's the last day of 2009!
what's going through your mind right now?
positive or negative things?

for me, 2009 was relatively better than 2008 aka the shit year,
nevertheless, I went through lots & lots of ups & downs.
but then agn, who doesn't?
if you wna go emo abt how shitty your year has been,
seriously, there are so many ppl who are far worse off.
it's good to think back,
note your mistakes made & learn from them,
mark down the experiences,
rmbr the memories.
but ultimately, you hafta look forward.

& before we start jotting down our new year's resolutions for 2010,
let's just rmbr one simple thing,
that is, to be realistic.

& most importantly,
MAY 2010 BE A GREAT YR FOR US ALL!!!!!! :)

okie, change of topic!
I GOT INTO THE FINALS FOR TEENS MODEL SEARCH 2009! :)
thks so much for your votes!!!!!
Finals will be held on 19th Jan, 7pm @ Marina Square!!
Come down & support okie?!

So, on 29th dec(tues),
we had our photoshoot!
First it was video filming at FluxPhotography,
then we headed to OldChangiHospital(OCH) for photoshoot.
will upload photos soon!
But actually, they are all in FB alr :)

In short, it was a fun albeit tiring day.
definitely felt great knowing this bunch of fun-loving new frns!
looking forward to more fun with them in january!

& then ytd, JoJo, Zk & I headed to Sentosa.
SUPER STEADY.
v last min, but we were really steady!
the sun made me feel so much better.
I concluded that sun therapy works for me!

& next, it was a crazycrazy night!
but i really had a good laugh!
thks buddy ong & frns, for the fun night :)
(Y)(Y)(Y)!

&, Buddy Ong, you always manage to make me feel better.
always ard without fail. :)
& I can never thank you enough.
11yrs, & still counting!

& this, was what he said:

Joey says (4:51 PM):

u ask me whether u should stay home or go out what. i gave u the best answer u can get

and then u said u're already staying home

SHANSHINE! says, even if it's going wrong. says (4:51 PM):

dont act yi ge professional

Joey says (4:51 PM):

oh comeon....

SHANSHINE! says, even if it's going wrong. says (4:52 PM):

hahah i say i wna stay home because of my niece not cause i wna emo or what shit!

but i iwll head out la most prob

ahya assuarance assurance i always need assurance

so you can just say

you shld head out!

hahaah

Joey says (4:53 PM):

why so insecure?

i think i need buy u a lock

SHANSHINE! says, even if it's going wrong. says (4:53 PM):

yes pls!

hahah

Joey says (4:53 PM):

and then dump the key into pacific ocean

for u will feel secured forever

so*

Joey says (4:55 PM):

yeah

hang it ard ur neck

SHANSHINE! says, even if it's going wrong. says (4:56 PM):

your pet ah?

Joey says (4:57 PM):

well at least ur secured

woooo

OHOH

i know what

SHANSHINE! says, even if it's going wrong. says (4:57 PM):

WHAT

Joey says (4:57 PM):

u buy a small lil lock

Joey says (4:58 PM):

and out a chain thru it and wear it like a necklace

then pass the key to your bf

AWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWW

SHANSHINE! says, even if it's going wrong. says (4:58 PM):

you watch too much dramas laaaaa

HAHAHH

on a heavier note,

im not angry with you,

but im very disappointed.

& sad.

doesnt feel right somehow..

One Hundred & Seven.

Everyone has those people you know?

The ones who are there for them through it all.

Through every single up and down of your life.

They are always right there,

riding the coaster with you,

squeezing your hand tight on all the biggest, scariest hills telling you,

“You’ll be okay, you’ll make it through, you can do this.”

You know that they will never hop off the coaster

at a stopping point to find an easier ride; they will stick with you because they want to.

You trust these people immensely and they trust you too.

These people, they complete you,

they bring the biggest smile to your face

and make your life worth living.

You know that they will always be there for you,

no matter what,

twenty-four hours a day,

seven days a week,

and all three hundred sixty-five days of the year.

You spend each day trying to think of some way,

any way, to repay them,

to help them understand what they have done for you,

but always come up short.

You simply tell them thank you,

hoping that will be enough,

but apologizing when you realize it isn’t.

They, though, find it enough for you to be happy

and knowing that your coaster has slowed down for now.

And as your coaster slowly picks up the pace once again,

you know these people are still there,

ready to support you and squeeze your hand when you,

once more, find yourself riding it out on those hills.

And even if, over time, you find yourself apart from these people,

you are never truly apart,

maybe by the standard definition,

but truly you aren’t.

Near or far, far or near,

these are the people that will always love you

and they’ll never leave you.

runwaytrain.tumblr.com

One Hundred & Six.

"Sometimes you just need to realize that you can't have it all
and you can't fix every mistake you made.
You need to move on and try to be happy,
even if it's the hardest thing you'll ever do."

"There is no person in the world

who is made to handle every punch that's thrown at them.

We aren't made that way.

In fact, we're made to get mad, upset, sad, hurt, stumble and fall.

We aren't supposed to be able to handle everything.

But that's what makes us stronger in the end.

By learning from the things that hurt us most."

"Sometimes you need to stand up for what you believe in,
even if that means standing alone."

"Sometimes the hardest things to say are the things that really matter."

Runawaytrain.tumblr.com

One Hundred & Three.

HELLO!!!!!!!!

yup it's out!

Teens Model Search

Pls pls pls help me to vote okie!

&, you can read my 'blog' here too!

As I mentioned on FB,

"yes i know i know........ voting agn! really sry! but i've no choice too.."

many(or rather, all?) competitions involve the voting system nowadays..
but im glad that this is totally FreeOfCharge!
at least it's not by SMS which costs a bomb! ;p
so...... vote for me kay? :)

Can never thank you (my dearest frns; readers; passer-bys) enough!! really really appreciate your help :)

Anw, I took part in this competition
because my boss Mr T. signed some of us up for this. :)
& yup, we went through 2 auditions
before getting into the Semi-Finals.
[yes, Jingjing is in this competition wimme too! :) ]

Now, the voting system is to determine
the Top 20 (10 girls, 10 guys) who will get into the Finals!
& I really really wna get into the Finals!! :)

Do vote for Shawn for the male contestant too!

So now....... i need your help!!
thank you! :)

*pictures taken from Teens Website & Teens FB Page & Teens Mag January Issue

One Hundred & Five.

HOHOHO, MERRY XMAS!! :)

I may not be a Christian; I may not know much about
Christmas, the stories behind & everything,
but..........
I like this happy & joyous kinda feeling, the feeling of spreading the joy around,
& I love seeing everyone immersed in this jolly season mood!

May your days be sparkled with faith, hope, joy & love. :)

Oh ya, the other day, I baked cookies,
for sis to give to her colleagues.

Cornflakes & Oats cookies.
Love it! ;D

Anyhow, my throat hurts like MAD now.
it has been a week alr!
getting WORSE now. seriously.
plus cough plus a nose(full) of mucus.
couldnt slp well at all for the past few days.
Which means I havent been able to gym/jog for a long time alr!

hatehatehate this weak feeling.
CANT STAND IT.
I wna sweat it out in the sun!
Had the urge to go jogging
under the hot sun just now,
but I resisted because I'm still feeling really *#(%&#*&%.

not feeling very well now,
shall go slp!

One Hundred & Four.

Keeping quiet & staying calm

does not mean that I do not know anything,

does not mean that thoughts are not running across my mind all the time.

Some things are too obvious,

& you just can't hide the facts.

Faith & trust; you've gta prove/show to me before I can even place them on you.

Sincerity, I value.

One Hundred & Two.

Hmmm let's see.. a quick update!

1. Headed to Fairmont Hotel on 14th Dec to attend Raffles Design Institute's Graduation Fashion Show (LOUD) tgt with Dawn.Y & Mr T. Hmmm maybe he just randomly asked me to join them?
   Anw Dawn is really sweet & friendly as usual :)
   
   
2. Subway TVC Wrap Party @ The Reel Thing Office. Was a good chilling out session. Had free fortune telling session too. E's wife is really good at it!! :)
   
   
   
   
   At the end of the day, C, YY & I literally RAN ALL THE WAY to the train station to catch the last train;

& yes, I RAN BAREFOOTED. ;D

The Silver Medalist at Sea Games 2009 (Judo)!

3. gna have photoshoot on Sat(tdy) with the same guys who did the Muay Thai shoot. Looking fwd to it! :) this time, it's gna be indoor!

Time check: 4.01am. SLEEP NOW!!

P.S Anw, I'm tanned/red/burnt from the Inter-Hall & Inter-School Nball games!

One Hundred & One.

101th post!

"Stand still for a second, and you'll be left behind.

But as hard as we try to move forward,

as tempting as it is to never look back,

the past always comes back to bite us in the ass.

And as history shows us again and again,

those who forget the past are doomed to repeat it."

" Everyday we get to give the gift of life,
it can be painful, it can be terrifying,
but in the end it's worth it.
Every time. We all have the opportunity to give.
Maybe the gifts are not as dramatic as what happens in the operating room,
maybe the gift is to try and make a simple apology,
maybe it's to understand another person's point of view,
maybe it's to hold a secret for a friend.
The joy supposedly is in the giving,
so when the joy is gone,
when the giving starts to feel more like a burden,
that's when you stop.
But if you're like most people I know,
you give till it hurts, and then you give some more."

-Meredith Grey

One Hundred.

Hello!!
I realised I havent blogged a proper post for a LONG TIME!!

well wassup for me since the end of exams?!!
I've been busy..
but busy with what?
I honestly dont really know. hahah its like,
all the small things/events pieced tgt.

driving lessons took up much of my holidays..
& I'm taking my TP very very very soon.
on Xmas eve.
If you dont see my ULTRA EXCITED STATUS on FB & Twitter,
then you shld know what happens.
so pls,
dont ask me abt it & dont attempt to console me..
sry, but Im just not that confident abt it!
okay, actually, im slightly more confident than before.
thr was a period of time whr I was REALLY demoralized to the max
& regretted taking up the driving lessons!
hhahahaha okay,
pls pls pls lemme pass on my very first TP!!!!!!
but seriously, anth can happen on that day...........

you know what?

I TURNED TWENTY on 11th Dec!

& this yr, I spent it tgt with my beloved khakis. :)
ting is overseas, but I rcved special love from her with her sweet card!
I just feel really relaxed, comfortable, genuinely happy & glad whenever I'm with them.
It's like, a nice feeling which comes naturally without fail.
I feel blessed to have them. :)
Kbox-ed.
Anyway, Jesley!
I listened to the voice clips recorded,
most of the times, we were TALKING abt the MTV characters/other craps
while singing!! can hear a lot of your comments!! ;D

Photos!

my khakis!!

Les :)

Imitating Da-Lang in Hi, My Sweetheart.
HAHAHAHAHAH!

tt's the retarded Shan for you

:) :) :)

Ninety Nine.

Ytd I talked to someone abt you, abt us.
it triggered some thoughts.. it has been almost 9 mths..
Ive gotten over it, & Ive moved on.
But, I cant deny that tinge of feelings/thoughts
that still run through my mind sometimes.
okay, often. but, its unavoidable right?

I loved you, & in fact, I still do miss you.
But I guess it stops thr, nothing more.
Because i know that im just another frn to you now,
no more feelings & nth more;
because I know that we are simply different,
or at least, we seem to set a mindset that we're different.

Im closing this chapter finally.
(seriously, when is the last time ever the last?
I always say its gna be the last time, apparently it usually dont end up as the last.
but this time, im gna make sure it's really the last..)
in fact it shld have ended 8 mths ago.

I'm locking & securing this memory right in my heart.
because you're still someone special & important to me.
& I know, we can still be the good frns we used to be.

I'm gna embark on my new journey, I will.
Because the best way to love is to love like you have never been hurt.

sometimes you may be afraid to take the step

& is unsure of the future;

but you know very well that it needs to be taken or you can't move forward.

Ninety Eight.

loveliketruth.tumblr

Sometimes you gotta run away so you can see who will run after you,
sometimes you gotta talk quieter just to see who’s listening,
sometimes you gotta step up in a fight just to see who’s standing by your side,

sometimes you gotta make a wrong decision only to see who’s there to help you fix it,
and sometimes you gotta let go of the one you love just to see

if they love you enough to come back to you.

- kisslock.tumblr.com
via Mel Fu

Yes Mel, everybody's using Tumblr now.
& truth is thr are really lotsa amazing posts thr!
& I did set up one too, just to hop here & thr. HAHAH!

Ninety Seven.

Feel it completely.

and tell yourself, you've tasted the feeling of lonliness and inferiority;

It's time to move on to try other feelings.

-Mitch Albom

"Pain. You just have to ride it out.

You can only hope it goes away on its own,

hope the wound that caused it heals.

There are no solutions, no easy answers,

you just breath deep and wait for it to subside."

"All of us go down one day
& may dwell there for some time.

But unless we work harder & harder,

we cant stand tall, and smile, and pat ourselves,

telling ourselves that we finally made it."

alan. says (2:45 AM):

sometimes you make it

sometimes you break it

but you never know if you'd make it

if you dont risk breaking it.

Ninety Six.

Because my frns are like tt...............

1. Joey, the ~.~

(See his DisplayPic)

& he needs his 8hrs of slp daily..........

2. Next up, Alan.

i wonder if he's gna kill me for posting this. but no dont think too much. we were just crapping obviously.

3.TYC. & I SAW HIM TDY AT CATHAY, FINALLY.

yes, you can see my tweets on the left & you will realise how much i dread driving lessons nowadays. :(

Last but not least,
4. Jingjie

ULTIMATE.

So my guy frns mostly have some 'cuteness/gayness' in them!

& I'm sure, after this post,
nobody will come talk to me on MSN anymore.
but I didnt post on FB leh,
very kind & nice alr right?
;D