October 31, 2009
October 28, 2009
ytd: slept @ 430am
tdy: woke @ 645am.
okay great im left with 4&half hrs of slp now.
October 27, 2009
October 23, 2009
Why? Because sometimes you are so tired of smiling and trying to be nice to others when others do not try to smile or be nice to you. Not a saint but you know you have tried to be good to others but others do not seem to try to be good to you; in fact, they begin to think you are a pushover. When every good seems to be forgotten and each bad remembered. When a sheet of white paper with a black dot is noticed only for its black dot. When whatever credit you thought you might have built up counts for nothing really.
I really don’t want to be calculative. But I really don’t want to be too accomodating either. How many can you accomodate in your life? How many would you like to accomodate in your life? Seriously, people who matter. I don’t want to be too accomodating. I’ll keep this at the back of my head. And continue to be the same, the way I deem right."
well said, totally.
October 22, 2009
reports to rush,
& then presentation week just TWO WEEKS before exams.
which means we're left with one week to study for 4 modules.
its not abt time mgmt anymore, its abt the the NBS's TIME TABLE SCHEDULING SYSTEM.
seriously, good game.
okay stressed is just desserts spelt backwards.
October 18, 2009
October 16, 2009
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October 14, 2009
Mad rush, mad cycles all over agn.
The projects are getting tougher & more requirements are needed.
Tell me, how do we start revision when the final exam is like in
one month time?
I think our last proj ends just 2 weeks before exam or so.
Just as I was chatting with James on MSN ytd,
the more I study, the more I'll question myself why am I even in Accountancy to begin with.
why am I making myself suffer so much?
& everyday, I'd just question myself continuously,
Am I just not smart enough?
Am I just not capable enough?
The inferiority never faded once, since Yr 1 Day 1.
I know, I've told myself, & some others ard me,
to not compare yourself with the others ard,
who are really smart & capable.
just set my/your own standards & target..
Nevertheless, it's inevitable to feel inferior, isnt it?
what's more, I'm actually a very competitive person.
but right now, it's like,
I dont even the right/capability to be competitive in the first place.
To the extent that, I've become ever more conscious of what I speak,
I just feel that everything that I say,
or try to contribute during discussions,
it feels stupid somehow.
I cant even express myself properly/clearly now.
This, was not how I used to be.
I used to be able to lead quite well,
to be able to present my presentations/speeches confidently,
& most importantly, the confidence in me which used to exist naturally,
seems to be long gone..
Am I just not up to it?
Oh well, the fact that I manage to do well for O levels, A Levels,
& then got myself a place in NTU(NBS) Accountancy,
shows that I still deserve to be where I am today right?
Even though I strongly believe that,
I'd be able to survive in the working society at the end of th
& that it's no pt getting GPA 5.0 & straight As for the 3 yrs,
graduating with first class honours,
but end up flopping & not be able to deal with ppl ard you in the work place,
which ultimately is the next impt phase of our lives.
at the end of the day, who cares abt that degree?
(maybe it matters, only at the beg of your career)
it's really how you perform & allow yourself to shine,
your capability aint based on merely that cert..
but still, i really want to graduate with a good honours degree..
It's just tt, I cant instill that "Heck Care" attitude in me..
but Uni made me realise that,
effort do not pay off all the time..
im gg for first blood donation tmr!
hopefully I can meet the criterias/requirements.. ;p
I really miss them loads.
but seems like I really dont have the time to.
Do I really hafta endure all the way til 25th Nov?!
i think i still do not regret choosing this course..
at the end of the day,
im still seeking for stability, & a great income.
the fact that Ive already chosen this path,
Imma make the best outta it.
climb, climb, climb up the ladder,
is still what i'd be aiming for my career in future.
slog for the first few years like nobody's biz,
& enjoy later.
I think & I'd like to believe that,
I'm still very much an optimistic & motivated person :)
October 12, 2009
October 9, 2009
October 4, 2009
tdy marks the end of my recess week!!!!!!!!!
which didnt even feltel like recess week to begin with.
currently, i've 4 projects on hand.
apparently, this whole week, i met up with nobody except my proj mates.
have been so busy the whole week with projs, tuition, casting, the NK Hairworks photoshoot & i dont know what.
all I know is, I didnt get to stay at home for a single full day.
the only day I finally got to relax at home was tdy,
& it wasnt even one whole day. reached home @ 5+pm.
(i'll tell you what I did tdy, later part)
this was how i spent my last night for this recess week:
dinner; immediately dozed off on sofa for an hr; cycled to buy BBtea+roti prata;
boring? you're so wrong. this is the kinda life I really enjoy at times.
HAHAH you know how I love staying at home.
im a super home-y person, if you dont alr know.
(cant emphasize any further how I love this phrase)
somehow, I feel really fortunate just to be able to do these simple things,
dozing off on sofa,
sitting in front of the TV,
enjoying a plate of fruits with yoghurt,
snacking on my rice crackers,
going for my jogs,
sipping BB tea,
reading storybooks, mags,
cooking dinner tgt with her,
my ideal perfect Sunday.
& for all I know, coming Sunday there's canvassing event:
Car Washing for CURL'10,
& then wedding dinner at night.
& another wedding dinner the following Sunday.
that we cant afford to have the time to do.
& often, we tend to overlook the simple things in our lives.
simplicity, is what im trying to highlight here.
OH! i did meet up with my khakis, Min & Jesley, + Ahbei!
albeit it being a short 1+ hr meetup.
& what did we do?
PLAYED CANDLES! :)
they are my laughing pills, no doubt.
helped me de-stress!
but ironically, we are the depressed gang.
aunty shine & AUNTY SEAH
@ the Velocity Ad casting. :)
I really hope you've been taking care of yourself & eating well..
I know your bf takes really gd care of you,
but you must take gd care of yourself too aye!!
okie I headed down to Toni & Guy @ Heeren,
to let them have a look at my hair,
to see if it's "do-able" for their Hairshow this coming Thurs.
But sad thing is,
the red that I have currently, makes it diff to bring out the colour
that they wanted for the theme,
even if they re-dye my hair.. :(
it'll definitely be great to be able to be their hair model!!
nevertheless, they took down my details for future opportunities,
& even offered to tone down my hair colour for me.
really nice of them.!
But I didnt, cause I had already planned to head down to NK Hairworks
for my treatment & removal of the fake nails..
sucha pity agn!
hopefully I'll get to work with them soon :)
anw, Kevin(from NK) told me abt this grand event @ Taka
coming up in Jan 2010.. EXCITED!
hope all goes well & I'll still be involved for the show. ;p
busybusy week ahead agn!
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